Posts made in December 2012

A Bird in a Window

Posted on Dec 24, 2012 in Faith | 0 comments

This revised blog post is dedicated to each and every person suffering this Christmas due to the December 14th massacre in Newtown, Connecticut.  My prayers are with you. 

I have always loved Christmas Eve’s candle lighting services.  But seven years ago, on December 24, 2005, I knew I would not be going to our church’s service that night.  It was a very dark day for me… I had spent most of it in bed, alternating between crying and trying to sleep.  Less than 48 hours before, at the 19-week ultrasound of my fifth child, I had learned the baby within me had a couple abnormalities that could prove “fatal,” my doctor had said.  I would need to have an amniocentesis to learn with certainty if my baby would live or die.  And because it was right before Christmas, this department of the hospital had already shut down.  I was told I would need to wait until the following week to learn the fate of my baby, another precious son.

I had no idea how I would make it through Christmas weekend.  I had no idea how I could possibly be a happy mommy to my four other darling children–ages 9, 8, 6 and 3 at the time.  I didn’t want to rob them of their Christmas joy, but, honestly, I just wanted it to be Monday.

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