Posts made in May 2014

Love and Tears on Mother’s Day

Posted on May 11, 2014 in Faith | 2 comments

IMG_4132For this Mother’s Day–and with May 12 & 13 the eighth anniversary of the birth and death of my son Ben–I was all set to write you a note of encouragement, sharing some of the “beauty” that has come from my “ashes” (Isaiah 61:3). I wanted to offer hope to anyone who might be hurting. I wanted those with broken hearts to know that the beautiful promise in Scripture–“Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy”–is true (Psalm 126:5). And then, on Tuesday night, April 29, 2014, after letting my three beloved dogs outside, only two returned.

With flashlights to aid us, my eldest son William and I began calling her name. Amid howling wind and increasing snow, we searched and searched. Bella was the precious puppy God had given me during my pregnancy with Ben. My heavenly Father knew how painful it was going to be for me not to have a baby to hold after nine months of carrying him within, so He’d graciously provided me a darling Beagle pup. Sweet Bella had loved me all these years, and I her; as any dog lover knows, she’d been like a child to me. Especially with the loss of Ben. Now, in the pitch-black night, Bella wasn’t responding to her name. William and I had been looking for at least an hour; I could almost feel my heart breaking. It was horrible not knowing where my baby was.

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