Posts made in April 2015

A Letter to My Beloved Bella

Posted on Apr 30, 2015 in Faith | 2 comments

Screen shot 2015-04-29 at 4.25.44 PMTo my beautiful, beautiful Bella,

How I miss you.  I can’t believe it’s been a year since you’ve been gone.  Not a day has gone by I haven’t thought of you and your funny, silly, disobedient, precious ways.  How you’d look at me with those eyes, wagging your tail, asking me for more food (again), with that “smile” on your face.

As much as my heart has ached missing you, the worst pain has been watching Bolt miss you.  You were a wonderful mom, Sweet Girl, cuddling your son and playing with him.  I’ll never forget how he audibly cried for three days after you died.  He would look for you, confused, and cry.  It broke my heart.  I gave him stuffed animals about your size to cuddle with, and he still sleeps with them today.  He and we all love you so much, which is why we miss you so much.

Although images of your sudden, tragic death will forever sadden me, I choose to think of the countless times you made me smile.  The day we brought you home, when you went to the bathroom on William’s lap.  When we found you sleeping in the sun–in a flower pot.  How you’d bark and bark and dig and dig in the sand at the country house, trying to get some reaction from the turtle.  How you’d move your bowl around the kitchen floor with your nose, signaling to me it was time again to eat.  How you’d start licking something you had disobediently been chewing when you realized you’d been caught in the act.

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